~*January 2009 is here and gone*~

January 2009 was a good mth besides the fact one of my best friends died. I was able to enjoy life a little more. My baby girl turned 10 mths old and shes such a handful but I love every minute of it. Shes such a beautiful baby. She is getting so big. Hard to believe in March she'll be a year time sure does fly. I started my schooling as a first responder and Im doing GREAT so far. I have been to ONE big fire since I started and it was pretty interesting . I start my Mod 1 classes this week and hope to be able to do good in them as well. I helped out with the teen maze and it was actually enjoyable knowing that I actually taught somebody something. I have been able to spend time with old friends and able to spend MORE time with family. I am still looking for a job, but Im about to start babysitting a friends baby girl and another little girl. I am trying to prepare for Kenzi's party and its going smoothly so far. My radiator went out in my car the other day and so I have to get a new one tonite... I also am getting fitted for turn out gear tonite. All in All life is good. Hard to believe though that we are in the 2nd mth of 2009. Enjoy Life...

~*Lifes TOO Short*~

I sit here and think about how many people I know who have died or have gotten killed in the last few years and its so hard to believe. One of my only best friends died on Sunday morning. If I had the reasons why she did what she did I would pray she was still here. I miss her more than anything && will never have the answers to all my questions. But I hope she knows I love her and will always remember the fun times we had. Emily was one of the most beautiful girls I know and she always will be. She had the most AWESOME smile && it was so contagious. She had a way of showing people how she cared for them. We had some great times together even though we only hung out a little bit she was an inspiration to me. I believe now she is the reason for all the GOOD happening in my life right now. I get to take 1st Responder classes that I have been looking forward to for a while and I also get to become a volunteer FF. Things are looking up for me so Im happy. I keep praying that Emily dying was a dream but I know it wasnt so I just need to remember the memories we made. I love you girl && thanks for everything. Save me a spot right there beside you =)